Yeah, the internet sucks royally. I wrote out everything all eloquently, but then it got deleted because of an outage. So yeah, you now get the crazier, me trying to remember what I wrote, and typed up hastier version.
The meds that I wrote about last time worked for a while, but then I realized I was gaining an amazing amount of weight. It was causing even worse, constant paralyzing panic attacks, and I didn't want anyone to see me, ever. I was also changing my diet for the better and starting to work out in my home, so I should have at least been staying even for weight. But no. So the doctor gave me a new prescription, and everything would have been fine, except that it's expensive, so I freaked out over the price, and didn't get it for too long, and went without any meds for a while... It got really bad. I finally just said that we had to, and gave up seeing the chiropractor to get them.
They seem to be working pretty good. I've been feeling better, and am getting through the holidays with happy feelings. It's nice. I even got a camera for christmas (early) so I'll write about more cheerful things like presents and post pics soon.
I want to do stuff with people, but probably won't make the first contact for fear of, well, people. Friends, and people who want to get to know me better, I'm not always this crazy, and I'm getting better, so I apologize for the crazy/ lack of communication. But just initiate something, and I'll do it.
Your friend, even through the silence,
Jenny
